Almost Half Way There

I'm about 4 1/2 months pregnant now. Wow, that went by pretty quick.

I don't think I look pregnant yet but I definitely feel & look fat. I went for my monthly check-up last weekend and found out I've put on 2kg in a month. My clothes are feeling rather tight around the tummy and my arms. Don't really understand why the arms but they absolutely feel like at least a kilo fatter - my sleeves keep getting stuck at the elbows when putting & taking my top off. 

As discussed in my previous pregnancy as to the shape of the tummy, I think this time it's a watermelon too. Which means it's not pointy at all but rather spread out flabbily across (belambak gitu). Which means, when my friends see me they say 'hey, you're still not showing yet but you do look a bit chubbier', while poking my hips. Which also means, I think I'm having a girl. 

With Ayisha, we didn't find out the sex of the baby. The whole surprise element is apparently a very Aussie thing to do. Drove me crazy but I went along with it. This time, Michael told me that it's only fair for me to decide whether or not I wanted to find out. He of course, would still like it to be a surprise. We could find out on our next scan, which will be in another 2 1/2 weeks in Sydney while we're on our Christmas holiday. 

At first I thought it would be nice to have another surprise. But the more I think about it, the more I feel like I really wanted to know. One reason for this is because like last time, we're struggling to find a boy's name. Actually, this time we're struggling with a girl's name too. So at least if we find out, it's half the stress of trying to find a name that we both could agree on. So for now, I have decided that I would want to find out, but it would be a secret (ala2 Marion Caunter gitu..ahaks).

For the past few days, I've been feeling quite alright. I was feeling really good for 2 days straight, being able to cook breakfast, lunch, dinner and playing outdoor and swimming with Ayisha. But I bragged about it to Michael & my friends too soon and that 2nd night, I vomited like I've never vomited before. I'm still feeling nauseous and faint but it's not all day every day and I don't feel too weak to do stuff. I checked my diary from last time that I was still vomiting at 4 months but very rarely. So, pretty similar. 

The difference this time around is that I've been having some pain on my backside. It's literally, a pain in my butt. The right butt. I can't really point out the pain but when I'm moving positions and walking after sitting down and even sneezing and coughing, I can feel a stabbing pain. It's pretty bearable but it's just a bit annoying. My midwife Kim, an Australian who's been in Bali for more than 20 years,  said it's pretty normal. It's probably the age thing too. Urgh.

Another thing that's different this time is that I am pee'ing sooooooo much more, day and night. Sometimes not even a sip of water between my 1st & my 5th one! With Ayisha, I only started waking up in the middle of the night to pee during my 3rd trimester. This time, I started waking up constantly weeks ago. Actually, from the first paragraph till this very sentence, I've gotten up 4 times to do wee wee.

Other than that, I'm doing pretty good. I do feel a bit more relaxed & chilled this time around. Not that I care less but I guess having been through it all made me feel like it's all going to be ok and not worry and google about every single little thing. The anticipation and excitement are still the same. It still felt pretty awesome to hear the baby's heartbeat for the 1st time on my last check up and I can't wait to feel it moving. Kim said that I should feel the baby moving soon if not already, especially now with the 2nd pregnancy I would've known what to expect.

Honestly, I still have NO idea. Last time, I only felt for sure of any movements  at 23 weeks. So, if I'm still as clueless, it would be another month or so till I feel anything!

Either way, I hope it'll continue to grow healthily, strongly and safely and I'll continue to have a smooth and lovely pregnancy. Now excuse me, I gotta go pee...again!